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I went to personal trainer last night and it was good. Then I went to Yoga. Last week went to trainer, yoga and cycling. This week I just didn’t feel like going to cycling. I didn’t want to be at the Y so late at night. This week has been really stressful with work and my parents. My mom is going for a colonoscopy today, my father needs surgery, a splint, for his kidney. I have blood that needs to be seen and the last two times it didn’t come back favorable…it showed my liver count elevated. I started to incorporate wine into my diet. The last couple of nights I’ve been having a glass before bed. It’s good. It helps me relax and I sleep through the night without waking up several times. I feel more rested in the morning. Trainer said she’d rather have me drink wine than eat peanut butter…so I’m drinking my calories now. It’s all good.

I need to cycle or run tonight. I have to do some kind of cardio. I should go right after work and get it done and then go grocery shopping. Instead of going grocery shopping first and then go to exercise. I know if I do the later I’ll not want to go exercise later on the evening. Yep, go right after work then grocery shopping.

Gotta go friends…work calls. I’ll talk to you all later. Have an awesome day!

Tonight I worked out by myself. It’s hard to get to the Y when I know I’m doing it alone but I pushed myself and did it. I went to cycling and then I did my weight work. It went well. I always get anxious in the wellness center (weightroom) but I am doing it anyway. I know what I’m doing I just need to do it and trust myself. I’m so grateful that I got it done. Tomorrow will be a light day maybe running and then coming home to relax, or cycling. Cycling has turned into my new addiction…I’ve been going almost every day. It gives me a break from running.

Ran my first official 5k this weekend. My time and place are posted…I am happy with what I did. 150 people…I came in 66th place. I’m good with it! I didn’t stop once, I ran the whole thing. I came in at 29.3 mins. I met my goal of the year to run a 5k within 30 mins. I am so good…lol. I remember the time I couldn’t run 3 minutes straight without panting like a dog…now I run 5ks!!!!!!!!

Last night after work I was motivated. Went to the YMCA near my job instead of my house. Asked about the Women working on weights class and talked to the trainer. She seemed nice enough. I did my cardio 4 miles running, then weight routine from trainer, then cardio class, and then the Women working weights class was starting. I stayed purposely to see what they were going to do. The trainer saw me and invited me to come into the class. Hey, I don’t don’t ever turn down free training. I went. It wasn’t as intense as I would have liked it. It was bunch of middle aged woman bitching about how hard it was to do simple exercises. The trainer even had told me before that some the women have been in her class for 2 years! Please…I wouldn’t be broadcasting that…it makes her look bad. They didn’t even know the correct form for some of the exercises. She asked how I liked and I told her about the level and she promised if I came back and tried it again she would up the level for me. So I might go back next Thursday. Nothing wrong with free training. I am so blessed.

Gotta go…work calls.

Last night I never made the dream board…I did write some ideas down and got that done. I wanted to go the YMCA and do Yoga and my cardio. Never happened. It started to pour down rain and allowed myself to use that as an excuse not to go. I went to bed early…7:00 p.m. I was in bed sleeping. I guess I needed the sleep.

Today I’m suppose to go do cardio and weights (on my own). It’s hard to get there on my own without a trainer or a friend waiting on me. But today I am going. I am going after work and to a different YMCA. This YMCA I’ve been to before. I am going to see if they have the W.O.W. training that I did at the other Y. I will see how they do it there and if the trainer is any good. If he or she is good I might sign up for next month there. I am not sure. I think I really need to let go of all these trainers and trust myself and just do it. I know what to do. I just have to do it. I have my exercise routine from my trainer and all I have to do is follow that. It’s not that hard or complicated. It should be easy. It’s just getting there is the hard part. I’m going directly after work so I won’t have any issues with going home and getting sleepy or laying down for a few minutes and falling asleep. Right after work and I have a goal to get this done. If it is earlier enough and they have some classes I like, I might even join one of them.

I need to redicate myself to my goals again. I don’t want backslide and I feel like I am starting to do that. When I have a lot of free time (unscheduled workout time) I become anxious and fearful. I need to get a good routine down that I can follow on my own with or without any personal trainer. I need to be powerful in my own right. That’s the plan…workout and then devise a workout plan of my own, that works for me. I’ll keep you posted as to how it goes buddies. Have a good day!

Making a dream board tonight. Going to hang up all my dreams on a poster board. I am def. going to do pulls up before the new year. I am tired today. Rough day at work. Lately every day after work I want to go out to eat to all you can eat places! What’s up with that? I know…I haven’t yet, but the feelings are there. Monday, I went to kickboxing and cycling. Tuesday I went to trainer, and then I ran 4 miles. Today I just want to eat…I have no plan, no one but myself to be accountable to. I won’t eat though. I will go and do cardio. I am thinking cardio and then yoga. Or Yoga then Cardio but it’s better to do Yoga after cardio so I can really relax at the end.

Gotta go back to work. Have a good one!

I am only seeing one trainer now. I stopped the group training class for this month. After the trainer didn’t show up the last two times we had group training and we had sub trainers it really turned me off from taking that class. I can take that class at another Y for $12 cheaper. I was only taking it there for that trainer and if I cannot be promised that he will be the teacher there is no since me signing up there to take that class. I am staying with my personal trainer.

I am very attached to her and she works me out hard…although she is thinking of taking a job (an hour away) training in Tampa. She isn’t sure yet because she has young kids. She would work at the same place her husband does. I don’t see how she would be able to work there and still personal train at home. We’ll see if I have to find a new trainer soon.

I went for Chinese food last night (buffet)…I didn’t binge, but I’m sure the calories were way high. I tried to stay with the stir fried items. Tonight going to Red Lobster with all you can eat shrimp … concerned with this. Last time I went they had all these sauces that I just loved to dip into…sweet. I will be very mindful and pray before I go.

Gotta get to work. Talk to you all later. Have a great day!

I’m back to working out in the mornings. I wanted to go yesterday morning but couldn’t get up to go…I was too tired. This morning I was tired too, but had to get up to use the bathroom and while I was up I decided that it’s important I go this morning so I don’t have to spend all night at Y and cardio after weight training tonight. I was going to walk on the treadmill but I remembered they had cycling class. I signed up for that and went. Yeah…getting into cycling all of a sudden. It was really hard at first but I’m getting use to it and enjoy it. I wonder if it burns up as many calories as running. In this cycling class we got off the bike at times and did high impact cardio. It was all good.

I’m up on the scale again this morning…137 now It’s all the crap I ate this weekend. I went crazy and was sooooooo into the food. I had lots of sugar and lots of all you can eat restaurants. I know this is self defeating behavior but I do it any way. I had a hard week last week. Hopeful this week will be better. Still learning how to replace food with another activity when I get upset.

Can’t remember if I told you guys but my liver ct scan came back it was good. I don’t have cancer, the pancreas is swollen but the doctor told me that it could be my body and the way it is. We will do another blood test in a week or two to see if the levels in my liver have come down since I am off all of my supplements.

Last week in my group trainer, the teacher was out. I was pissed…we had a sub trainer for two class…one trainer teaches boot camp and he made the class just like boot camp…which I can take for free. I felt like that was a waste of my money, the other trainer was ok but they were not what signed up for. I am getting over it though. I hope my regular trainer shows up tonight. It’s the last class for Aug. since we started late and I want to find out if the other girls will sign on for another month. If not then I have to figure out what my workout schedule will be.

Gotta run for now. Have a great day!

This year at work the Instructional Assistants have an office with two computers in it and a phone. We are moving up in the world. It’s really nice to not have to use the same computers as the kids and fight for time to check our e-mail during the day. (required to check our e-mail twice a day).

Let’s see…this week with training I was extremely upset. My trainer Shane missed both classes and there was no explanation to why he did not show up. Last night I marched up to the desk and asked what is going on to one of the managers…of course she didn’t have a clue so I gave her my name and number and she will check into it. I am paying extra money to take this group training and I picked this trainer not a fill in trainer. So far both fill in trainers have classes at the YMCA that I could take for free. It’s not the same training. My trainer has a 4 year degree and knows what I can do. These other trainers have no idea. It’s so not right. Shane should call us and tell us why is not coming or give us a reason. I do no think after this I will sign up again for his class. If he couldn’t do the class he should have postponed it. I will not market him anymore either. Also the I saw the director of the YMCA - and she was like hi, how are you? and I vented to her too and she said she would check into it. I hope they do something about. If I don’t get a call today from someone there I am going to put it in writing…this is crap. I could have gone to another YMCA for less money but I stayed here because Shane was the teacher. Not again…man I pissed when I saw another sub. I heard that Tues. he did not show up because he was out on a boat all day long and got caught in a storm, then last night I saw him from far away but he left…heard he was sick…so sick he came to work but didn’t stay an extra hour to train us? To sick to pick up a phone and call and tell us what was going on? Pleassssseeeee….so unprofessional. Will have my comment cards all written out tonight and tomorrow I will hand them in…if I see him personally I will hand them directly to him. Why can’t trainers be responsible? What’s up with that?

Hey…my time is up…got get back to work…will chat more later. C YA!

egg whites with mushrooms, cheese, garlic, oatmeal, salsa, zucchini, tea, baked apple with cinnamon, chicken, salad. tea,  cottage cheese with oatmeal and blueberries, soup (chicken with rice, and beans), salad, pasticcio nuts I didn’t go to the YMCA today. I was tired after work, came home and planned on taking a shower and going out to eat at Red Lobster to get all the shrimp you can eat but never made it there. I did take the shower, then I went to lay down…fell asleep for a few hours got up and was going to go out but it was raining and decided to just stay home and eat. I can save red lobster for the weekend. Kind of into the food too much tonight. Felt like binging all night long. Took little tastes of this and that all night long of different things.  

Gratitude List1.     Grateful that I have a schedule to follow now at work2.     Grateful we do not have to go outside for recess with the kids at lunch time now3.     Grateful that I took a break and rested today4.     Grateful that I got many compliments at my job about my how muscular I am (people still cannot believe I am not at my goal weight they think I am there, but I still see myself as overweight)5.     Grateful that my team will arrive early so I can be in the group picture tomorrow morning (I have to ride the pre-k bus)6.     Grateful for my big soft bed, that allows me to get a good nights sleep7.     Grateful that I didn’t eat everything I wanted to tonight.8.     Grateful that I am going to bed before 11:00 p.m.