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This year at work the Instructional Assistants have an office with two computers in it and a phone. We are moving up in the world. It’s really nice to not have to use the same computers as the kids and fight for time to check our e-mail during the day. (required to check our e-mail twice a day).

Let’s see…this week with training I was extremely upset. My trainer Shane missed both classes and there was no explanation to why he did not show up. Last night I marched up to the desk and asked what is going on to one of the managers…of course she didn’t have a clue so I gave her my name and number and she will check into it. I am paying extra money to take this group training and I picked this trainer not a fill in trainer. So far both fill in trainers have classes at the YMCA that I could take for free. It’s not the same training. My trainer has a 4 year degree and knows what I can do. These other trainers have no idea. It’s so not right. Shane should call us and tell us why is not coming or give us a reason. I do no think after this I will sign up again for his class. If he couldn’t do the class he should have postponed it. I will not market him anymore either. Also the I saw the director of the YMCA - and she was like hi, how are you? and I vented to her too and she said she would check into it. I hope they do something about. If I don’t get a call today from someone there I am going to put it in writing…this is crap. I could have gone to another YMCA for less money but I stayed here because Shane was the teacher. Not again…man I pissed when I saw another sub. I heard that Tues. he did not show up because he was out on a boat all day long and got caught in a storm, then last night I saw him from far away but he left…heard he was sick…so sick he came to work but didn’t stay an extra hour to train us? To sick to pick up a phone and call and tell us what was going on? Pleassssseeeee….so unprofessional. Will have my comment cards all written out tonight and tomorrow I will hand them in…if I see him personally I will hand them directly to him. Why can’t trainers be responsible? What’s up with that?

Hey…my time is up…got get back to work…will chat more later. C YA!

egg whites with mushrooms, cheese, garlic, oatmeal, salsa, zucchini, tea, baked apple with cinnamon, chicken, salad. tea,  cottage cheese with oatmeal and blueberries, soup (chicken with rice, and beans), salad, pasticcio nuts I didn’t go to the YMCA today. I was tired after work, came home and planned on taking a shower and going out to eat at Red Lobster to get all the shrimp you can eat but never made it there. I did take the shower, then I went to lay down…fell asleep for a few hours got up and was going to go out but it was raining and decided to just stay home and eat. I can save red lobster for the weekend. Kind of into the food too much tonight. Felt like binging all night long. Took little tastes of this and that all night long of different things.  

Gratitude List1.     Grateful that I have a schedule to follow now at work2.     Grateful we do not have to go outside for recess with the kids at lunch time now3.     Grateful that I took a break and rested today4.     Grateful that I got many compliments at my job about my how muscular I am (people still cannot believe I am not at my goal weight they think I am there, but I still see myself as overweight)5.     Grateful that my team will arrive early so I can be in the group picture tomorrow morning (I have to ride the pre-k bus)6.     Grateful for my big soft bed, that allows me to get a good nights sleep7.     Grateful that I didn’t eat everything I wanted to tonight.8.     Grateful that I am going to bed before 11:00 p.m.

Today the kids go back to school, which means I’ll be comforting many kindgergarteners that don’t want leave their mommies or daddies. The first day for the kids is always challenging…getting to know their new teachers and kids they don’t  know.

I packed my lunch last night and snacks for the day. I’m not exactally sure when I have lunch this year. I will find out today. I am going to start eating on schedule and  hopefully I can drop 5-10 lbs. I won’t have much time to obsess about food today which I am so grateful for. I better go for now. I’ll tell you all about my day tonight.

I go to trainer girl this evening…hopefully I’ll have enough energy after working all day long. It’s hard getting back into my work schedule…I’m just like the  kids…have to get use to it. Have a great day all!

6:00 a.m.-two eggs hard boiled  7:15 cycling, 8:00 a.m. cardio on treadmill walking two miles, 9:00 a.m. yoga, 10:00 walking, 10:30 a.m. rowing, 11:00 a.m.-wellness center all different machines, practiced pull ups, 1:00 p.m. lunch inside – oatmeal with a banana, almonds and apple, tea, 2:30 one egg hard boiled and 3 to 4 crackers/4 tortilla chips with salsa, 5:30 p.m. church luau-a little bit worried about this…going with my parents and my mom is a food pusher…she will encourage me to have just a little it will be ok, or you never eat it, it won’t kill you. She doesn’t get it…if I start on a little I won’t ever want to stop. Will try to eat clean and right for my body tonight at dinner.

Work this week is was ok. I didn’t do much. We had breakfast this morning that the PTA gave to the staff then a meeting, worked for 30 minutes, went to lunch then worked for an hour and had another meeting and the day was over. I am glad the weekend is here though. The kids come on Monday. I’m looking forward to it. Glad to be back at work.

I’ve signed up for cycling tomorrow morning at 7:15 a.m. I know, what am I thinking, waking up so early on a weekend I want to get it done with. One of my weekly goals from trainer Coree is to get 3 cycling classes in this week. So far I’ve only got 1 done. She gave me my goals on Wed. so I have next Wed. to get them done. Around here it’s hard to get into a cycling class. You have to call the day before or they fill up. It’s just crazy. I don’t even like to spin so much…just trying to achieve a goal. At first I didn’t think I could do it, but I took the first class and it wasn’t that bad. Tomorrow I’ll go on to the second cycling class.

I was into my food today…not so much in the morning or at lunch…I did well then. At work it started with a breakfast that was put on by the PTA. There was all kinds of delicious food…I ate eggs and fruit. I did well there. Then lunch was at a restaurant…Mexican…I ordered tacos and started to eat the taco shell with the taco but it broke which gave me the brillant idea to just eat the inside…chicken, lettuce, salsa, and cheese and leave the shell there. It saved me on calories. Dinner was awful…I go out with friends on Friday and someone always different always picks the restaurant. This time we went to the Marine Corps…it’s not a restaurant but an organization that puts on dinners. Everything is prepared ahead of time and you can’t ask for food the way you want it cooked. I did my best in ordering. I had fish and green beans. The fish was baked but tons of butter and the string beans prob. were canned with tons of sodium. Still over all I did good. I passed on the baked potato/mashed potatoes/corn/bread/fried fish/chicken cordon blue and pie. It was a waste of my money. I got so angry at dinner because I wanted to be able to have food my way and didn’t get it. Next time I will call and see what they have before I go. My friends do not understand that if I eat the wrong types of food I’ll go off and just start to binge. Did good at the corps, but when I got home I wanted to eat everything in sight. I came home and had an apple. Watched some tv and started to write out the bills….started to stress…and then wanted more food. I made a salad with tons of stuff in it and ate it all. I probably had too many calories over all. This week was stressful from the doctor’s appointment. On Tuesday I was 132. On Thursday after I went for Chinese with my friend and out to dinner with my father on Wednesday I weighed 136…tomorrow I’ll go and see what I weigh. I’m scared to get on the scale cause my emotions so ride on that number. When I don’t weigh I am so much happier. I don’t have to worry so much…but if I see a high number my spirit just drops.  You would think I would learn and I just wouldn’t weigh any more, but I am compulsive so I keep beating myself up I will pray tonight and God for some help with this. I do have to weigh tomorrow cause on Monday I am weighing and measuring with trainer Coree and I don’t want any surprises. I want to know what I am going to weigh before I get to her.

My goals are no longer weight related….who am I kidding…they are but I can’t get beyond 127 and now I’m in the 130’s…oh well…trying to focus on another goal. My other goal is to do pull ups. I am practice most days to get them done. I do them on the assisted machine and with a friends help. One day soon I’ll be able to do my own…lol.

Well friends, I’m tired…it’s late and I have to get up early tomorrow. Have a great weekend everyone!

Summer vacation for me is over and I’m back to work today. Today is my first day back and I am so happy.  My food is much cleaner when I am at work. I am little bit anxious about returning but it will all be good. I am working some different people on my team this year that will be an adjustment.

My health…my liver tests have been coming back high. So I am scheduled for an ct scan tomorrow. I have to drink this yucky white chalkly stuff and then get dye shot in my body. If nothing shows there then I’m off to a specialist for the liver. Doesn’t seem fair that I lost all this weight and now I’m having healthy problems. When the doctor told me about my liver going up even more I wanted to cry…but putting it in God’s  hands. Nothing I can do about it until I find out the results of the tests. It could also be all the supplements I started to take recently too. I am praying that it is the supplements that is causing my liver to be wacked out. I am stopping all supplements and will give it 3 weeks then I will go back for another blood test and see what happens. I hope it was as simple as too many supplements.

I’m still haning out at 132 lbs. I go up and down from 127 to 132. My body is comfortable here. I worked out hard and longer this summer and still the same. It’s kind of frustrating. My new goal is not to weigh and focus on that any more. Now I have decided to set a goal of pull ups. Yes, I want to be able to do pulls. I’d like to be able to do 1 for now…lol. I can do them if I have help. It is a goal for the new. I want to be able to do at least 5 for the new year.

I’ve added another trainer to my schedule. I still have trainer girl, now I have trainer guy. He is 36 and a body builder…manger of the trainers at the Y. He is awesome. I’ve told him my goals and he assures me that I’ll be able to do pull ups by the new year. I am excited about working with him. Just started last month to work with him. He is very fresh and new. Also very challenging.

Well my friends…I’ve gotta run. I’ll talk to you guys soon.

D