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Let’s see where I left off…yes, I was going to the country club buffet for dinner on Thanksgiving. I took a walk before and after eating to compensate for the food…not sure it helped though. I did well on the main courses, but once it came to the dessert I lost it. I had about 4 different delicious desserts….blueberry pie (half a piece), small piece of chocolate cake in those paper wrappers, a cookie, and chocolate covered strawberries. The only reason I stopped was because my stomach started to hurt or I prob. would of kept going. I haven’t had dessert in ages. I am thinking of changing that though. I am thinking if I allow myself some type of dessert once a month I won’t go wild like that and pig out when I do see those things.

Friday I felt guilty and spent all day at the Y, from 9 to 3. I started off with boot camp…the warm up was running 5 laps around the field. I couldn’t keep up with everyone one else L I felt slow and fat. The instructor, Jeremy was so nice. He was asking me what was holding me back from running…was it my breathing…no…what was it? I told him I think it’s mental. He asked me how I do when I run with my trainer and I told him we only did that for the 5k and we don’t run together any more.  I think I can’t see the time…I can’t see the miles…I can’t see the calories…I feel like I’m running but there is no guide to tell me how fast or how long. Is that crazy? I just don’t do well outside for some reason. I need to get a watch that tells me the time and miles or something…really…I need to get my butt outside to run and practice. It is so much different than the treadmill. After boot camp, I went to kickboxing, power flex and dancercise. It was a good morning. My friend J was there and she offered me lunch we had sweet potatoes J after lunch I got a second wind and decided to go running on my treadmill. I got in 2 miles. I was happy with Friday’s workout over all. I was trying to burn off those dessert calories.

Saturday I slept in. I was so tired. I got to the Y around 3. I already had it in my head that I wasn’t going to run and didn’t. I pressed the weight loss button on the treadmill and did that routine…it just ups the incline to a 3 but it’s a good work out. I was sweating at the end.

Today I was tired again and didn’t plan on going to the Y, but around 2:30 I came home from shopping and decided I needed to go. I went and ran today. I did well. I warmed up for 5 minutes ran fast in the beginning then slowed down but got in 5 miles and then walked the rest to equal 6 miles. It’s the longest I’ve walked or ran so far. I am trying to push myself harder and harder to get this weight to come off. It’s hard now buddies…the weight don’t come off like it use to. Yesterday, I met someone from the summer time when I use to go to the day time classes. The woman came up and said, “Aren’t you too skinny, now?” I laughed and said thank you. Me too skinny? I don’t think that is possible. LOL

Tomorrow is work again. I better get going and get some things done before bed. Have a great week buddies.

Today I weighed and measured with trainer. She thought I wanted to do it next week cause of my period but I insisted on doing it today. Next week would be too long of a wait. The scale did move today buddies! I was so surprised. Trainer jumped up and down and hugged me. My friend J was there too and she gave me a hug too. lol…I am now 143 I beat my goal for this month, which was 146. I am very happy about that. I didn’t think I would actually meet it but I’ve been upping my running every day and really working for it.

I ran one mile before working out with trainer and then I ran 3 afterwards and then walked a little bit. Total cardio was 4.5. I went in today at 12 cause I’m off of work and the Y was dead. No one was there…it was so nice to train and trainer had some appointments cancel so she gave me extra time and we chatted a little bit too. It was more relaxing today and not so rushed. I had a good work out. I worked out hard and it was all good.

Tomorrow is Thanksgiving…going to a buffet at the country club with my parents. This will be a challenge because they have the big dessert table and I haven’t had pie in a long time or any chocolate. I know I can have a small piece of something but my fear is that once I have a small piece of something can I stop myself from eating the whole table full of sweets. Gotta do a lot of praying and carry my goal list with me for sure tomorrow. I gotta be prepared for anything! Not going to be fat again…nope…no way…no how…it’s only food and there will be food on Friday too that I can eat. I don’t  have to stuff myself because there will always be food available for me no matter what. Giving myself a pep talk…lol.

Thanks for listening to me buddies. I appreciate all your comments

Hi all. This morning was extra hard to get up and go work out but I did it anyway. I did 4.5 miles total, running 4 of those miles. I was impressed with myself. That’s the farthest I’ve ever ran before. Cardio is great these days.

Weight on the hand is still around the same thing I’m hovering around 146/147. I was suppose to weigh and measure last night with trainer but I told her I didn’t want to do it. She said we could wait til Wednesday. I didn’t want to do it cause I have my period and I know I’ll weigh more. Training went ok last night, even though she called me a quiter. Yeah, that’s what I am a quiter. Oh well…whatever! I’m not mad at her, though it seems. Not really, I know she pushes me for my own good. I’m not going to be able to train with her for much longer cause the prices are going up in the new year like $40.00 more a month…sheesh! I knew there would come a day where I’d have to let go and I think the day is coming very soon. I’m still dealing with this. I don’t think I can do it on my own. We talked about it last night and she was like we will still be friends. We might not see each other 2 times a week or something but I’ll check up on you. I told her she will be too busy with her family and kids and she said we are working on getting you one…a family. I guess I just have to try and do it on my own…I’m just so scared to let go buddies. If I’m left to myself all havoc can break out and I can eat and get fat again. I don’t want that.

I’m at work now and feel sick. My nose is running and I feel hallow. Maybe I didn’t eat enough after working out. I don’t know. I hope today goes by quickly then I’m off for 5 days. Maybe I did too much at the Y this morning. I’ve gotta keep it up or I’ll go no where though. Feeling a little manic this morning…could be all the caffeine I had this morning. I drank an energy drink then some tea. I should lay off it’s getting to me. I’ll talk to you later…I gotta get to class.

This morning I didn’t go to work. I woke up depressed and my body hurt from working out last night. I just didn’t want to go. I slept in until 10:30 then decided I need to do something to make myself feel better. I decided to get a hair cut. I’ve been deciding this for like a year now. Today was the day I did it. I got it a lot shorter then I had it in  years. It looks cute. I’m happy with it so far. I’ll get all the reactions tomorrow at work.

Later on in the day I went to the Y. I ran a mile, then went to a powerflex class and for the first time I went to a spinning class. The spinning class was something else. It started off easy but got harder then got easier again. Not sure if I like it enough to go back though. I’ll have to think on that one. It was good cardio though. I got in a good days workout. I was thinking of not going at all but glad I turned it around.

Since I haven’t been losing weight as fast as I have been trainer thinks I should cut down on the carbs. I love my carbs I will cut them down though…I want to reach my goal. I can do it. I’ll add more veggies to my meals. Tonight I had chicken with a lot of broccoli. It was good and I felt full. I’m 147/148 right now. My goal for this month is 146…not sure I’m going to make it. I am working out harder then ever when I go the Y. I run more then I walk, and I’m working out 5 times a week. I’m lifting more weight and pushing myself. I’m just so tired sometimes and feel like I need more engery to keep going.

Woke up this morning early and went to the Y. Lately I have not been feeling the motivation to go the Y in the morning. I have been so tired, so I am proud of myself that I went this morning. I have been running for the past 4 days. It’s prob. not a good thing to run so much back to back but I want this weight to drop. I’ve been hanging around 150 for like forever. I weighed this morning and it was around 149.  Its been 149 or 150 and even 151. I’m doing the work and pushing myself harder in my workouts.

Yesterday worked out with trainer. I did  a good job. We did some new things and I got scared - thinking I couldn’t do them, but she talked me through them and I did them. It was  hard but I did them. We did clapping push ups…that was really funny, or just funny having me do them. I don’t do them very well. I can’t seem to pop up from them in enough time. I think I got in like 10 all together. Those I will def. have to practice in order to be good at. She is always pushing me and making it harder. Some of the new things she has me doing are cool, but I would never admit it to her cause that would just excite her and push me even harder.

I told her I ran on the speed of an 8 and you would of thought she won the lottery she was so happy for me. I told her though it wasn’t for long…but she didn’t care. It was just the fact that I ran on the speed of an 8. I was excited about that too. She asked me how I was doing with my running and how far I’ve gotten. I told her 2 miles I run without stopping. I don’t do that every day. Only on days when I feel really tough…(which don’t come too often) lol. 

Well, I gotta get to work. Talk to you later. Biggest Loser tonight

I had a good workout today. I ran mostly with some walking thrown in. I got in 4.5 miles. I’m still 150. This weekend I went to trainers house to hang out and she encouraged me to have wine and I did. She likes to drink, although she can afford to drink, I really shouldn’t when I’m trying to lose weight. I think I’m going to include wine in my calories from now on. I know Jillian is totally against drinking if you want to get shredded…but I’m a long way from being shredded. Don’t even know if I ever will get there. Thinking of having a glass of wine now…just thinking though…only like 90 calories or something like that.

I hope everyone is having a good weekend.