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Last night I went out to eat. I ate a lot of food. So much more than I normally eat. My friend even commented on how much I ate…you ate more tonight than you ate all week at my house. Yes, I know…thanks friend. I even had a margarita. It was all good and I knew when I got there that I would allow myself  a little bit of everything and that’s what I did. I’ll weigh myself at the Y today and see if I’m up a lb or 2 this morning. I feel a little bloated from all the salt in last nights dinner. Hopefully my weight will be the same or less.

I am going to do more cardio today at the Y. I don’t think I’m going to run today or even walk so fast. I feel low in energy this morning, not depressed just low in energy. That might all change once I get there though. I should be able to get in a hour this morning of cardio. I’m thinking of NOT trying the harder rock climbing wall at all. My friend’s grandkids are going to try rock climbing today and that should be neat to watch them. They are 6 and 8.

That’s about it for me. Later tonight we are going to a music concert in this hall that is suppose to be enormous. The music is from a military band I think. That should be interesting. I’ll talk to you later buddies. 

Failure…that’s what I feel right now. Today I rock climbed again…this time I tried the harder route…forget it! No way I couldn’t do it. Of course my inner self started talking all kinds of trash about me. Told me that I was still too fat, and that I’m weak and all this crap that I know is not true. I weighed again and am still the same…sheesh…I even thought at one point it was going to go up a lb!

My friend is fat like I use to be and I don’t think she likes the skinner me. Is that something or what? No, really…she makes some comments that hurt. I haven’t said anything to her. She told me if I see any stores I want to stop in I should just ask her…so I told her yesterday all those stores around the market we went looked good. She said she would drive me there and wait in the car…it’s like 105 in TX and I am going to go into the store and have her wait in the car? Come on…I’m not sure what she is pulling but it’s pissing me off. I just told her no I’m not going if you aren’t. Then later on she said those stores only have clothes for skinny people…so I figure she doesn’t like to go in there because there is nothing for her. I remember how I’d feel when a skinny friend of mine wanted to go into stores…I would never say no…I always went with but I was bored out of my mind and just wished I could fit into things in the store. I guess that is how she is feeling…but hey, I’m on vacation. My friend is in her  70’s and she doesn’t think she needs to eat healthy or even care what she eats. At first when I got here I thought she wasn’t going to take me to the market or to the YMCA. I don’t know what happened. The only reason I am going to the YMCA is so much is that her one grandaughter goes there to play volleyball in the morning and she goes to see her or she would complain it is too far to go. She wanted me to believe it was 45 miles from her house at one point…and I told her no way then she thought about it again and said oh maybe it is only 12…come on…please. I guess I don’t do vacation well. Maybe it’s me. But all we do is go to water aerobics, eat at her condo, and go to the Y. I even suggested the movies several times to her and she always makes up some excuse. Maybe it was a mistake coming out here. I don’t know. I’m pmsing and feeling sad today…maybe because of the rock climbing … I don’t know. Any way…I’ll talk to you later…going to eat out dinner tonight for a change…might meet the man of my dreams there. Who knows…

Slept in later then normal. Had a relaxing morning around 10:00 we headed to the YMCA. My friend’s grandaughter plays volleyball there and she had to pick her up. This gave me the opportunity to do my cardio. All the treadmills were full when I got there so I had to work out on the elliptical. I did that for about 30 minutes. At 11:30 I went over to the rock climbing wall to check it out. There was no one there but the instructors. I wasn’t sure I could do it and wasn’t going to do it at all because I was fearful but my friend walked down there and said she wants to climb and pointed to me. I asked how dangerous it was and the young guy said not at all. I filled out my liability form and said I’d wait until I could see someone climb. No one came so one of the instructors got up there and climbed up there and rang the bell at the top and then repeled back down. At first I was nervous but the higher I climbed the easier it got. Since it was my first time I took the easy route. I had my own cheering group there….my friend and her two grandaughers…they kept yelling higher and higher.  So I did it…I rock climbed at the YMCA in Texas. It took less then five minutes. I was like wow I did it…and then it was over. It really wasn’t hard and it was like no big deal, now that it is over. My friends grandkids want to climb now They are 6 and 8. She will talk to their mom and see if it is ok. If they do get to climb we will go back tomorrow and watch them. I might even try a harder route then last time.  Now I don’t have to worry so much about rock climbing if I do the Urban Challenge in November…I know I can do it!

After that we came back to friend’s house had lunch and went to the pool for a couple of hours. Not sure exactally what the plan tonight is…I know grandkid’s mom will come and get them soon and then who knows…

Went to water aerobics this morning and it was good. The water was so warm. Here the water aerobics are so much better. They do more intense things with weights and noodles. It was fun. After water aerobics my friend dropped me off at the gym on the base and I walked/ran for 3 miles in 45 minutes. I ran a mile today and then some more

I did find a scale at the gym. I was 170.9 before exercise and then after 170. I haven’t gained anything yet. So that is good, but I want lose weight…so I’m going to have to cut out all those great flavored ice teas I’m trying. No more blueberry tea, or mango tea.

So far vacation is going well. I relaxed by the pool yesterday and got some sun. Friend said it would take a long time to tan my white legs I wanted to have a little tan before I went back to Florida. Oh well…maybe I can tan my arms and face a little bit.

Today’s plan is to go to work out at the military base…water aerobics at 9:00 then my friend is going to drop me off at the gym so I can get my cardio in for 45 minutes. Yippy I am so happy…hehehe…not really. I’m kind of tired, but not going to pass up a chance like this to exercise. Gotta get that exercise in no matter what. 

Later on we are going to watch the cows run and maybe go to a rodeo That should be exciting and go out to eat at Riskys. This will be fun. I think I might eat some steak tonight at Riskys. They had an ad in the newspaper with a steak and it looked so good.

I’ll have to look around the military base and see if they have scale…I’m kind of wondering if I lost or gained anything. I’ve been eating more fruit then I normally do and wondering what its doing to my body. I’ll keep you guys informed.  Talk 2 u later!

Did water aerobics at the military base, they had weights to go in the water, went to the Y – OMG – I am so thankful for my Y. My Y is like a country club compared to theirs. Went to two different Ys and both were awful, very small and dark, no windows. I did work out though. 20 minutes of walking/running and 15 minutes of the elliptical. On Sunday going to check out a newer Y that is suppose to be very nice. If I don’t work out at the newer Y I can work out on the military base, they have all the equipment.

After the exercise we went to a huge fancy grocery store…rows and rows of wine, cheeses, meats…very foo foo….I could lose myself in there. I didn’t though. I kept my head and we got out with the right food for dinner Doing so much better with my food today. This morning ate 2 eggs with some watermelon, lunch-whole wheat pita with some lettuce, tomato, chicken, mustard - for dinner had half cup of black beans, one turkey taco, some guiltless gourmet chips with salsa, and white blueberry ice tea (all natural) and 56 calories. I was am very happy with my exercise and food today.

Tomorrow the plan is to go to Dallas. We will go to the Galleria…an up scale mall I hear. I cannot wait. Oh some good news buddies…I went to a store on the base this morning and we did some shopping. I bought a fossil purse for $17.00 on clearance…it retails for $88. and I bought two Mudd belts. A black one and a white one…they came together. I was looking for an extra large in the belts but they only had a large/medium…so I tried that size on they fit! I couldn’t believe it. The belt is on the last hole but since I’m still working on me it will be a good way to measure my weight loss. I was happy about that too.

My friend has full lenght mirrors in her kitchen area and I took a long look at my whole body this morning and I actually liked what I saw this time. I didn’t cringe away and say yuck. My body is starting to look good and I’m starting to accept that I look good too. I know everyone tells me that but now I’m starting to feel thinner and not so fat.

I’m in TX. I didn’t eat right earlier today. Didn’t eat enough. I had a protein bar for breakfast, some almonds, yogurt with watermelon and blueberries.  I made mention to my friend that I wanted to go food shopping but seems like she doesn’t want to go today. We will go tomorrow. The reason I didn’t eat right is because the plane was late for the connecting flight and there wasn’t anything right to eat at the airport for me. I waited…and waited…and waited. Now my friend is making us dinner…chicken, sweet potato and asperagus One of my favorite meals. 

I also mentioned the Y again to her and she will take me to the base where she works out. We are going to do water aerobics in the morning. That should be fun. I did tell her I need to do cardio on a treadmill. We will see how that goes. I don’t think I’m going to be able to exercise like I should here. I’m feel anxious and nervous about food and exercise and I have not been here for more then 3 hours…not a good sign.  I’ll keep you posted.

I did cardio today…walked and ran. I ran fast at the end and was pleased with myself. Got in 2.5 miles and then went to line dancing.

I won’t be around for two weeks…going to TX on vacation. That is if the hurricane that’s on it’s way doesn’t stop me before I leave tomorrow morning. I am getting excited and anxious.  I got my motivational list printed and brining it along. Going to log my food still, and have two places I can exercise when I get there. Also going grocery shopping when I get there…so I am all set.

I’ll try to check in if I can… 

I went to see trainer woman today. For some reason before I went I was all nervous. I guess the reason was that I was going to get weighed and measured. I lost one pound…so now I am 170. I lost 9 lbs. for the month. Work out was good but I was kind of depressed as I was working out and I don’t know why. Trainer noticed right away that I was quite and asked why…I didn’t really have any idea. I guess it’s that’s I’m nervous about going on vacation.

I think this vacation will do me good, my body can have a little rest from the every day workouts and I can just be. I plan on going swimming a lot and maybe work on my tan.

Usually I go to kickboxing on Monday nights and then Zumba, but I heard today the teacher isn’t back yet. So they will have cardio unleashed in it’s place. I’ve taken that twice before and that’s a hard class. I am not sure I’ll go tonight. I’ll have to wait and see how I feel. It’s not worth going to Zumba if I don’t go to cardio unleashed.

I took my skirt back that was too big and got the size 12. Now this one fits just fine. I haven’t worn clothes that actually fit right in a long time. I would just buy something to cover my fat my body and be thankful I found something. Now I can buy all these pretty outfits I should be happy.

Trainer girl said to not to worry about weights while I’m away,  just get in 3 cardio works a week and watch my food like I do here. That I can do. I’d like to surprise everyone and workout and lose more weight when I come home. I’ll have to see what’s available out there for me to do…I know my friend has a workout room at her condo, swimming pool and the Y is 7 miles from her house I should be all set.

Yesterday I didn’t go to the Y. I went shoe shopping to get ready for my vacation and later on in the day I went to an anniversary party. This couple is married for 60 years! It was wonderful. They had a lot of food there and I didn’t ask ahead of time what was going to be served. They started off with appetizers and everything on the platter was fried. I did take some…fried eggplant, crabcake…then another platter of cheese, olives, and veggies came out. I had some of those too. I did feel overwhelmed when the fried food came out and thought I was going to lose it and eat everything in site but I pulled back and reminded myself that I am in control and can do this. Of course that is when the waiter came around and placed the hot fresh bread in front of me on the table. I love hot fresh bread…sheesh…what a test! I immediately passed it down to the other end of the table where I would not have to look or smell it. Salad came next…everything was ok there…then my dinner which I ordered seafood combo….scallops, shrimp, flounder all grilled. There was another crab cake on the plate a bigger one but I didn’t eat that since I had the smaller one on the appetizer. When they had the toast I only took a sip of champagne, and I passed on the cake that was offered at the end. Over all I did ok. I hate that overwhelming feeling of I am going to do the wrong thing and eat something I shouldn’t. It was good that I stopped at the appetizer and only had a little. I weigh and measure tomorrow and I want it to go down!

On a good note. I went to try on one of the skirts I bought last week for my trip to wear last night and it was big! I couldn’t believe it. It’s a size 14 and it was almost hanging off my hips. Today I am going back to the store and returing it. Maybe they will have a size 12. I doubt it because it was on clearance and I think that was the only one left…but you never know. I think when I tried on those clothes last week I was bloated and now that my period is almost finished I am not so bloated. Or it could just be all my hard work and I am losing! I’d like to think it’s the later reason.

When I got home after the event I had lots of energy and decided that I did need to exercise after all. I walked on my treadmill, and did some weights for 45 mins. It was all good.

Well, I gotta run. Hope you are all having a good weekend.