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Today is my day to go to the mall. I visit all the clothes…say hello and leave Today was a little bit different. I usually park by one entrance but it was all full so I decided to go around to the back and get a closer spot. Well, by that door they had the misses section, and I thought to myself…why not go and look. I haven’t been in the misses section in like 10 to 15 years. They had section and section of things to look at. I couldn’t believe how many clothes they had for the regular/thin people…the woman’s section has like 4 racks here and that’s it. What’s up with that? Fat people don’t like clothes or like to shop? Please! I looked and tried on some things. I found two pairs of jogging pants that fit :) They were an XL and a dress size 16. It was great…I didn’t buy them because I have a ton of jogging pants and the dress was like $80. After going thru the misses I went upstairs to where they have the woman’s (fat) department hidden away. I found the same dress that was downstairs for $80.00 but upstairs it was on sale for $24.00! I couldn’t believe it. It would have been mind if they had my size. They only had a size 18 and it was too big. I can’t believe the price difference.

I also tired on bathing suits…hehehe…I wasn’t dreading it. I was looking forward to how good I was going to look.  I looked at them in both departments. I found one that looked cute but for $100.00 I just couldn’t do it. It wasn’t all that cute…hehehe. When I was looking in the mirror I thought to myself…wow…I am so sexy…then I looked at my thighs and the vision vanished immediately. If you take my body from my upper stomach up I look damn hot If you take it from the stomach down…my inner thighs need some serious work out time! I gotta start firming those up. So what I decided I need is one of those little skirt thingies…that’s they type of bathing suit for me. A skirt for the bottom to cover those hideous thighs and a nice V cut top to show off my cleavage. I always use to think I was was too big busted, until I put on the swimsuit today. My breasts worked well and I felt sexy. I’m still looking for the right suit. I’m not suppose to be in the sun cause I have rosacea…so I’m not in any hurry to find one, but I’ll keep looking.

I did buy something though today. A small green Fossil change purse. It’s cute and just the right size for my purse

I’m all motivated to work out tomorrow! I’m on the edge of misses section…but I want to be full in it! I don’t want to ever see the woman’s section again, if I can help it. A couple of more weeks and I think I’ll be in for sure. This means more running and walking. I’ve done 6 minutes of running 3 times this week. I’m kind of scared to even say…I’m thinking of trying 7 mins. tomorrow…we’ll see how I feel once I get there. It’s killer running on my calves but a girls gotta do what a girls gotta do.    

Cardio done! I don’t know where I pulled the energy from today but I ran 6 mintues then walked then ran two more minutes. Total of 8 minutes running then I walked the rest of the 2.5 miles. All good. I am happy it’s over with. My left leg (shin splits) is killing me now. I will put some ice on it before work and some exercises for it. Now I don’t have to worry about going tonight I’m so happy! Tomorrow is my day off from exercising and I’m going to take it cause my body needs it…or if I do go I’ll just walk and not run so hard. I just want this weight to go away…hehehe…the more I work it the faster it will go away. Gotta get ready for work…c ya later!

I am awake and dressed for the Y. Not sure about running today. My calves hurt. I really really wanted to stay in bed this morning. Not so much tired, just sore a little bit from working out yesterday. What got me out of bed was that I didn’t want to go tonight or tomorrow. Fridays I always go out with friends for dinner and tomorrow is my day off from the Y and shopping day I just visit the clothes at the store and try them on…I usually don’t buy anything. hehehe…talk to you later.

The last couple of nights I’ve come on I’ve had trouble getting to my blogging page. Anyone else have trouble? I’d have to try like 10 times then leave it and then come back…it’s odd…oh well.

Trained tonight with trainer woman. It was all good, she left happy, me not so much…I felt kind of sad. I don’t know why. It was a good work out. I did well. My lunges were so low I almost hit the floor She can really tell that I’m improving in everything I do and my endurance is much better too. I guess I got sad when she brought up the cardio again and what I do on the treadmill. We talked about it for a short time and she brought up 6 mintues again. I told her 5 minutes until Sunday and then on Sunday 6 minutes. She looked at me and asked if I did 6 minutes already and I refused to tell her. She told me 6 minutes before Sunday. If I tell her she’ll only say 7 minutes then…it never ends. I’m not ready.  Tonight after the work out I tried to do 6 mins. again but couldn’t get to it. I did 5 mins, then walked , did another 2 minutes then walked, 2 more min of running, walked then 2 more mins to equal 11 minutes of running. Tonight cardio felt like a chore that I didn’t want to do. I can’t even fathom waking up early tomorrow and going to the Y. I don’t feel like it now. If I don’t go tomorrow then Saturday I’ll have to go. I try to go 6 times a week. I shouldn’t worry about it now…I’ll pray…get a good nights sleep and run 6 mins in a row tomorrow at the Y. I can do it! Have a good night everyone.

I’m home from work. This morning I wasn’t sure I could run 5 minutes at the Y. I got there and started right off running…I didn’t do 5 minutes I went to 6 All I kept telling myself is 15 more seconds…just 15 more and then the 6th min. was done! I walked after that and then ran two more minutes and walked the rest…for total of 3 miles today. I am very happy with that. Not sure if I am going to the Y tonight. I’m really tired right now. Maybe if I relax a little bit, eat some dinner and then go later on.

Today feels like Tuesday to me…with the Monday holiday and everything. Only 7 more work days and I’m off for the summer! I can’t wait. I always say that for the first couple of weeks then I get bored…hopefully that won’t happen this summer. I want to step up my program this summer and go back to work looking hot.

I’m not really tired this morning but my calves (shin splits) hurt a little still from jumping rope and running last night. Not sure I can run 5 minutes in a row this morning. Last night when I was running it wasn’t getting any easier I’ve run like 5 minutes for 3 days- it should be a breeze by now…hehehe…but I ran after I just did an hour workout with trainer so that could be why it wasn’t any easier. When I think of running I get a little nervous and excited…it’s odd, I think I look forward to it now and the the challenge. I want to get it out of the way as soon as I get there. Is that weird? If I can’t do the 5 mins. in a row I’ll just do as much as I can and then walk and then run some more later on. It will be all good…at least I am doing something.

Not sure I’m going tonight to the Y yet. Gotta see how I feel after work. It would be great if I did go twice…more calories to burn off this ‘ol bod. I like to go in the morning on Wednesday because sometimes I go play bingo Wednesday nights with friends. I’m thinking too far ahead…I haven’t even done my morning exercise and I’m thinking about tonight…sheesh…one minute at a time girl! yeah, yeah, yeah…gotta go.

Very happy with the way tonight went. My body is shrinking I lost 12 lbs this month and am 190 now! I cannot believe it. I lost 3 more lbs. since last week. I’ve been working my butt off for it…doing all that running. Tonight, trainer woman decided it was time I jump rope. This is the first time I’ve jumped rope in like 25 years. Of course, I didn’t think I was going to be able to do it but I did fine She wanted 2 mins straight and I started and stopped…not that good at it but better then I thought I would be. She was impressed with me. After working out with her I did my cardio and yes I ran again in the beginning for 5 minutes then walked the rest. She didn’t tell me to run…I did that on my own and trainer woman was talking to someone one treadmill down from me…I know she saw me running…or heard me pounding on the treadmill…hehehe, but she didn’t say anything. Maybe that is a good thing…she knows I don’t like attention. I did tell her that I ran 5 minutes in a row yesterday and the day before…and of course she said lets do 6 now. Not sure I’m ready for 6 mins. yet. I told her that…but of course she pushes me to go forward. I’m going to e-mail her and tell her on Sunday I’ll try for 6 mins. and leave it at that even though she wants 6 minutes on Thursday. I am also going to tell her she doesn’t have to watch me do my cardio, that I can do it myself. As Jillian would say, don’t pay her to watch you do something you can do on your own, you aren’t stupid you can run on a treadmill by yourself I am proud of myself tonight. I pushed myself to do more and did it. Now I gotta keep it up.

Tonight is measurements and weigh in I’m pretty darn excited about it. I haven’t weighed since last Monday. I want to see if I lost anything. I was weighing in every day and that was driving me crazy and to depression….now it’s once a week baby. 

Today better be a good work out. I won’t  have it any other way…hehehe It’s all up to me. I read a sign as I was driving that said…pain is inevitable but suffering is optional. How true that is. I’ll let you know how it all goes later on. See ya!

I went to the Y…I always start off running cause that is the hardest part for me. I did 5 mins. in a row, then walked then ran a little bit later on. Not as much as I ran the day before though, but it was ok. I did get in 3.5 miles in a little over an hour. I’m happy with that. It’ s more than I normally walk before or after work. Usually I get in 2.5 miles. Now my calves are hurting a little bit…shin splits…but no where as near as much as when I first started running…so it’s all good.

I didn’t even think of weighing when I got to the Y…all I thought about was how crowded it was and would I get my favorite treadmill…hehehehe…I did get a good treadmill. In the middle of walking and watching General Hospital I thought of weighing and then something happened on GH and I forgot all about it. Yes, I take my Zune and watch General Hospital at the Y. I start off listening to music to run by then switch over to my prerecorded tv shows. It saves me a lot of time from watching them at home. 

Now, I am free the rest of the day. I can go shopping or take in some sun. Big decisions…what I need is a new lawn chair that I can lay out in. I don’t have one. Then I can do it right. Right now I’m just sitting in an adirondack chair. I don’t want to be the whitest girl on the planet any more. I even had someone ask me…if I had on white tights my legs were so white one year! yeah….I know! I just want a little color not much  

I woke up at 4:40 and checked e-mail, took a shower and then went back to bed I decided since I do not have work I can sleep a couple of more hours and did. Now, around 10:00 I am all dressed and ready for the Y. However, I do not feel like going…oh…but that doesn’t matter cause I’m going no matter what. Monday is my usual weigh in day and I really want to weigh in to see if I lost anything but tomorrow my trainer and I will weigh and do measurements so really I should  just wait for her. Maybe I’ll forget all about weighing in when I get there. My goal is to run more then 4 minutes a row while I’m there today. I don’t feel a lot of energy this morning so I’m putting my goal out there cause I know I won’t want to come back and say I didn’t do it. Wish me luck buddies. I’ll let you know how it went I come back.